Happiness

Alert! Alert!

Understand this.

And isn't a wonderful thing?! 

I think so :)

 So, What do you see?  What do you seek?  

Funny how only one letter separates those two words.   

Perspective truly is everything.

You have, at this exact moment exactly what your heart sought.  

So, what will you see tomorrow?

xo

Life is...

any questions?
 xo

The day Buddha met Carlin

So the other day I was driving myself a tad bit crazy... yes, I have those days, you are not the only one :)  I couldn't quite grab hold of... whatever it was that was leaving me with this great feeling of chaos... it was as if I was inside a jar and someone took hold of it with me inside and shook it and shook and shook it, and kept shaking it some more until I had completely forgotten what it was like to not shake.  I used these exact words as I was describing my feelings to my husband, "I am looking around at my life and I am seriously asking myself, 'you did this yesterday? how? how did you do this yesterday and the day before that and the day before that?'" and I don't mean I was asking myself those questions as in some sort of judgement.  I meant I was asking those questions as if I had really forgotten how to do the most basic things.  Laughing at me yet? ;)

Anyway, that's how it felt.  It was not a good feeling.  I walked from room to room, either walking towards a child who needed me or some activity that needed my attention, while another child followed me or asked me something... and the day continued.  I would sit, and not know if I wanted sunshine on my face or a good night sleep.  I found myself also saying this over and over again to my best friend, "I don't know.. I don't know anything.  I can't think.  I can't focus. I don't know anything."  and I also said this, "parenting wise, I am failing miserably."  That was the worst part.  It is one thing to feel completely detached from yourself, it is another thing to feel like a parenting failure because of it.

The self flagellation continued as mountains and mountains of things that "needed" to get done kept following me around the house like some zombie in a horror movie.  I began to stop "seeing" the world around me and instead I became just another thing in my world.  I didn't really like the feeling.  In the process, the clock ticked louder and louder, little hands needed my arms more and more and toys seemed to be laughing at me because as soon as I put them away, they would resurfaced yet again.

I had had ENOUGH.   I knew that I knew better than this.  I knew it! why then was I not able to stop this absurd cycle of insanity.   Then suddenly, I heard a voice in my head.  Don't worry, it wasn't one of those voices.  It was a voice that I didn't quite expect.   Even now, as I replay it in my head I can't help but laugh and laugh all over again.  As I continued to walk from one room to another forgetting why I was standing in the room to begin with, I met Buddha... in the most amusing of voices.

...and there, I found my Zen.

"and what about these people who tell you, 'My needs aren't been met.' You know what I tell these people? DROP SOME OF YOUR NEEDS!! "  George Carlin

and in the midst of laughter and a deep exhale :)  I did! :)

I haven't stopped laughing since.

How? how do I "find" joy?

Wise up!

Like sand. The lesson is simple.

It is all like sand. Everything. Our relationships, our jobs, careers, successes, money, experiences, it is all... like sand running through our fingers. And we try so hard... to manage it, to control it, to guide it, to prevent it from doing what it is in it's nature to do... we wanna keep it, we wanna claim it, and we suffer, until we realize our efforts are futile. No matter how tight our grasp... we just can't control it. The joy comes when we realize, we don't have to.

The lesson is simple.

I see the sand

I touch the sand

I love the sand

It is beautiful

It feels good

It is poetry

I love it's warmth as it reflects the sun

I admire it

it runs through my fingers...

I love the sand.

That is life. That is bliss. That is Freedom from pain, from "suffering", from hurt, from perceived anguish. Love life. Touch life. Experience life. Life is beautiful. Life feels good. Life is poetry. Appreciate life. Life runs through your fingers. Love life.

Let go of all misconceptions of control and futile earthly effort. Know that YOU are life. We are life. We hold the sand, we are connected to the sand. We are one. We have nothing to fear. We do not have to grasp to misconceived ideas of existence. Let go... love, love freely... don't waste energy trying to hold on. Be the experience you seek to feel and enjoy.

The lesson is simple.

See it, love it, live it, and keep loving it some more. That is ALL we are here to do.

Outdoor Challenge Day 2 *Once there was a tree...*

" Mommie!! Mommie!! Look!! "

" Look mommie!! "

" See me?!"

" See? "

Yes, I do honey, oh my god... do I *see*.

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Observe

Another great day

Another great day in my life
yes... today was another great day in my life.
I saw new faces...
some scary... some amusing...
and some a little sad...
I smiled... and they smiled back.
It was good.

The sky was immense
the sun kissed my face
and I didn't bother to fix my hair.

I didn't have to look up
I could "feel" the sky...
it's bright blue stared back at me...
and I knew I was free... and complete.
It was good.
It was very good.

Between the Latte and orange peels...
the seesaws and getting lost on our way...
I lived a dream...
I lived.

Joy was me
I was joy
I will remember today
Today will remember me
It was so good...
so good...

Today truly was... another great day in my life.