Thank you babies... for the privilege of making me your mommy

Thank you my Serafina... my Tookie.  You convict me every day.  I grow everyday... because of you.  You are beautiful, sweet and the most amazing little girl in the world.   Thank you for being you.  Thank you for blessing my life with your love, your brilliance, your welcoming pure heart, your sensitive eyes, your unique humor and giggle, thank you for giving me the privilege... of making me your mommy.

When you laugh I think... gosh... I wanna laugh like that.

You are love... and I think... gosh... I wanna be love like that.

When you discover a new tune that you sing out loud in public... I think... gosh... I wanna sing like that.

When you look at me... with your eyes reflecting nothing but pure innocence, joy and love... I think, I wanna love myself like that.  

Thank you my Serafina... my Tookie... for giving me the privilege... of making me your mommy.

Thank you my Santino... my Sonny.

My little man... there is nothing I love more in the world  to do than building lego worlds in your room.

" Mommy, this part goes here.  Look! I made a city!"
" kisses mommy... kisses." My little man... with the biggest.. most consuming heart I know.

Those hypnotic eyes... eyes that are like some rainbow lace that dress up my life... thank you... for looking at me with those eyes.

You are love.
You are joy.
You are the giggle of my day and the dream of my tomorrows.
Thank you my little man... my Sonny... My Santino... for giving me the privilege of making me your mommy. 

My Ofelia...

My Okie, My Okieliscious

keep teaching me honey... keep teaching me to spontaneously dance... the second the mood strikes.

Ooooh... bounce honey... bounce to The Beatles, Pink Floyd and Lady Gaga.

Thank you for being the epitome of happiness. 

Buddha has nothing... on your wisdom and Zen.

Tomorrow when you wake me... with your kisses and squeezes... when you mumble, "mawning mommy" and I thank all that is life for giving me this new day to love you, all three of you...  all over again... I shall thank you once again... for giving me the privilege of making me... your mommy. 

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you... for giving me the humbling, magnificent, unbelievable privilege.. of making me your mommy. 

     ♥

Homeschool Community... how do I love thee..

Let me count the ways!!

I love...

...Our Unplugged Educators community.  Our homeschool "group".   Love it!! I am totally in love and so very proud of the community my bff, myself and a bunch of us homeschooling mama friends have built for our families.  Today was awesome!! I loved it so much. We met and made all the plans for the upcoming Fall/Winter season AND Spring/Summer.  It has been exactly a year and I love it more and more everyday.  It felt so good to sit there amongst other cool moms who absolutely love their kids, love their roles as homeschooling moms, are proud to live out of the box and do things a little different.  Proud to be crunchy-grow our own food-living our lives unplugged from the mainstream-raising our bright "unsocialized" awesome kiddos!!

Our community is exactly that, a "community".  We are not about numbers or recruiting as many homeschooling parents as we can so that pretty soon we are just names on an email list, instead of a community of kick-ass happy, quirky moms who really appreciate one another and totally love dancing to our own beat :)  and who above ALL  else, live putting our children first!

It's been exactly a year that this community came about.  I love it.  I love our kids, I love our moms, I love that we can all sit and laugh and plan our year and feel completely at home :)  I love that we are unabashedly proud to be "unplugged" from the mainstream, proud to be different than the rest... we carry our "unsocialized" happy and healthy label with pride!

I love the home we have built for ourselves.  A supportive, healthy, uplifting, friendly community is hard to come by... so when it is found, it is treasured.

I love being part of something special and unique.  Most of all, I am really happy that I can give this to my kids :)  I am thankful and I am proud.

I love our community.
I love what I am a part of.
I love what I helped create.
I am a happy lady.
I am happy with my choices.
I love it all.
Life is good...
Life is great!!

xo

Obsessed much?

Yes I am! and here is the object... or rather, the tune of my obsession :)  Enjoy!! and really... ENJOY!! because if you don't, well then you need a lesson on happiness and coolness :) lol

Edward Sharpe and the magnetic zeros

40 Day Dream

I been sleepin for 40 days and
I know Im sleeping cuz this dream’s too amazin
She got gold doorknobs where her eyes used to be
One turn and I learned what it really means to see

(Chorus)
Ah – It’s the magical mystery kind
Ah – must be a lie
Bye bye to the too good to be true kind of love
Oh – I could die
Oh now I can die

I been sleepin for 60- days and
Nobody better pinch me
Bitch I swear I’ll go crazy
She got jumper cable lips
She got sunset on her breath now
I inhaled just a little bit
Now I got no fear of death now

(Chorus)

OhhAhhYeahYeah Yeah Yeah

I LOVE!!!!

Aug. 4th 2010

Sunflowers!!!

How awesome is she?? I love her! She greets me when I visit my front patio and when I pull into the driveway... a smiling flower is the most important thing you can have on your front steps.  So, meet my... 

~*♥Betty♥*~ 

Ain't she purdddyyyy?!!

I love pulling into the driveway and walking up this little path that leads to my doorstep... I LOVE it!!  

♥ 

I love my Betty.  

I love the steps that lead to my home.  

I just... LOVE it!! 

  ♥

Life is...

any questions?
 xo

Like sand. The lesson is simple.

It is all like sand. Everything. Our relationships, our jobs, careers, successes, money, experiences, it is all... like sand running through our fingers. And we try so hard... to manage it, to control it, to guide it, to prevent it from doing what it is in it's nature to do... we wanna keep it, we wanna claim it, and we suffer, until we realize our efforts are futile. No matter how tight our grasp... we just can't control it. The joy comes when we realize, we don't have to.

The lesson is simple.

I see the sand

I touch the sand

I love the sand

It is beautiful

It feels good

It is poetry

I love it's warmth as it reflects the sun

I admire it

it runs through my fingers...

I love the sand.

That is life. That is bliss. That is Freedom from pain, from "suffering", from hurt, from perceived anguish. Love life. Touch life. Experience life. Life is beautiful. Life feels good. Life is poetry. Appreciate life. Life runs through your fingers. Love life.

Let go of all misconceptions of control and futile earthly effort. Know that YOU are life. We are life. We hold the sand, we are connected to the sand. We are one. We have nothing to fear. We do not have to grasp to misconceived ideas of existence. Let go... love, love freely... don't waste energy trying to hold on. Be the experience you seek to feel and enjoy.

The lesson is simple.

See it, love it, live it, and keep loving it some more. That is ALL we are here to do.

Outdoor Challenge Day 2 *Once there was a tree...*

" Mommie!! Mommie!! Look!! "

" Look mommie!! "

" See me?!"

" See? "

Yes, I do honey, oh my god... do I *see*.

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...and now, a lesson in joy.

A lesson in joy.

♥

"mmm... yummy jelly on crackers... mmmm... oh this is sooo good. Wait, What? huh? Really Mommy? okay.. okay.. I'll listen. "

"Really?!! HaHa!! oh my god Mommy... you are so silly!! "

" HAHAHA!!! Oh MY GOD!!! MOMMY YOU ARE TOO MUCH! I CAN'T STOP!! HAHAHA!! "

" Oh dear... I am gonna have to lay down. That was just too much. Too much mommy. "

♥

Human Nature

"You don't really understand human nature unless you know why a child on a merry-go-round will wave at his parents every time around - and why his parents will always wave back."

~William D. Tammeus

Another great day

Another great day in my life
yes... today was another great day in my life.
I saw new faces...
some scary... some amusing...
and some a little sad...
I smiled... and they smiled back.
It was good.

The sky was immense
the sun kissed my face
and I didn't bother to fix my hair.

I didn't have to look up
I could "feel" the sky...
it's bright blue stared back at me...
and I knew I was free... and complete.
It was good.
It was very good.

Between the Latte and orange peels...
the seesaws and getting lost on our way...
I lived a dream...
I lived.

Joy was me
I was joy
I will remember today
Today will remember me
It was so good...
so good...

Today truly was... another great day in my life.

We all suffer.

We all suffer.


Let me say that again, we ALL suffer. While that may sound negative or morbid, it is not. It is no different than if I said, we all bleed.. or we all experience heartbreak. It is neither good nor bad, it is simply part of having this gig we call 'being human'. Regardless of what you read, what you see... understand something, there is suffering and it is up to you to be compassionate. No... not for THEM, but for yourself. Love, Accept, Learn, Unlearn... inhale, exhale... and meet them once again... for they are you and you are them. Be the compassion you need. Be the love you seek. Be the friend you love. Be... BE.

With your oldest friend, with a "perceived" stranger, with that one... that one who triggers something in you and it brings out the worst in you... with your distant parent, with those in the past... Be all those things you have told yourself they deny you. They don't deny you anything... how can someone with no water deny you fluids? Understand?

It is not about re-writing the script, it is about recognizing that it is all a farce and the reality is what is behind the curtain.

on that note... read or simply listen,

Breathe in breathe out
Tell me all of your doubt
everybody bleeds this way
just the same
Breathe in breathe out
Move on and break down
If everyone.. goes away
I will stay.
We push and pull,
and I fall down sometimes
I'm not letting go,
you hold the other line

Cause there is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
Hold on, hold tight
From out of your sight
Everything keeps moving on, moving on,
Hold on hold tight
Make it through another night
Everyday there comes the sun with the dawn.
We push and pull, and I fall down sometimes
I'm not letting go, you hold the other line.

Cause there is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes

Breathe in and breathe out (x4)

Look left, look right
to the moon and the night
Everything under the stars in your arms
There is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light (x4)


Breathe In Breathe Out (Mat Kearney)

I am.

I am my thoughts
I am my opinions
I am my ideas
I am my judgements
I am my anger
I am my love
I am my doubts
I am my choices
I am my smile
I am my breath
I am my memories of you
I am the brush...
I am the canvas...
I am.